Living Here Now

I had another realization this week.

As this year has passed, and I’ve struggled to “settle in” to my new home, I’ve been treating it as a temporary assignment. As if we’re only living here for a year or so, and then moving again (which is what happened with living in Florida – we were there only 15 months).  I’ve been reluctant to commit my emotions to living in Virginia, because I’ve been looking to the future as impending change, and I’ve been looking back with deep longing. I was finally feeling settled in Florida when we moved, and so I’ve been missing it a lot. I’ve compared my day-to-day in Virginia to my days in Florida, and every day came up wanting.

Then a morning devotional grabbed my attention with the story of Lot’s wife; I was challenged to not spend too much time looking back. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with looking back at memories and lessons learned. But to spend time longing for days past is time wasted. We don’t live our lives backwards, and I’ve been keeping myself from moving forward by not fully embracing my current living situation. I’m missing out on what God has for me “now” because I’m focused on “back then.”

Some of this is simply the natural progression of moving and adjusting to a new home. As I’ve said before, this process takes time – a year, at least. And we’ve been a year now in Virginia, so it’s time for these things to be working themselves out. But I realized that I’ve been clinging to the past, and that’s different.

I live here now, in Virginia. And in many ways, I am embracing it: I got a job; I’m slowly making friends; I think we’ve found a church home. We’ve explored the area. The boxes are unpacked. We’ve hosted out-of-town guests.

But I haven’t given my emotions to life here. They’ve been focused in the past.

It’s time for my emotions to catch up with my actions, with my life. I’ve prayed about contentment, but with my emotions stuck in the past, it’s hard to be satisfied. So now I’ll pray that I can embrace my life in Virginia with my whole life – emotions included.

I’m going to live in the now. God gives me today. This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:74 (emphasis mine, personalized).

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10 thoughts on “Living Here Now

  1. kbailey374 June 26, 2017 / 4:57 pm

    Love you! I am always noticing myself saying “up North” this and “up North” that lol… I don’t move forward doing that, when I am stuck in the wistfulness of it.

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  2. Mary Bartos June 26, 2017 / 4:25 pm

    At first I thought you were going down the “temporary home on earth” trail versus the “permanent home in heaven” trail. But you seem to have landed on the “bloom where you are planted” side of things instead. In any case, God has a plan for you to influence people where you are, even if you never figure out who they are until you get to heaven! Have fun exploring Virginia with your New Attitude! Our Laura will be moving to Virginia Beach in August for her Naval Internship. We will be exploring Virginia also! Blessings, Mary B

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    • peggyricewi June 26, 2017 / 5:14 pm

      Maybe we’ll see you. Meet for dinner or something.

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  3. theapplesinmyorchard June 24, 2017 / 10:16 am

    Sounds like a healthy realization, Peg. Ground yourself in the here and now. It will be more difficult than it sounds, but you already know that. It is the first step. Make new memories, in Virginia! God Bless.

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    • peggyricewi June 24, 2017 / 10:19 am

      Everything I’ve done, even enjoyed, in VA this past year has had a surreal quality to it. Time for this dose of reality!

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      • theapplesinmyorchard June 24, 2017 / 12:07 pm

        I think it is all understandable since you have moved more in the last couple of years than some move in a lifetime. Be Gentle with yourself. Time is on your side!

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