As I’ve said before, I’m in a holding pattern right now.
We just moved here 9 months ago, and I’m still getting established in life, routine, church, work, etc. I still feel “new” here. Relationships are slow to come by, and feeling at home takes time, at least a year, based on my earlier relocation experiences. Finding a church base takes time too, and we’re in that process right now. But finding ministry where I can serve takes even longer, as I’m discovering every week.
So as I wait, I wonder. What do I want to do with my life? Or rather, what does God want me to do with my life?
I’m in the second half. I’m a relatively new empty-ester, and now is the time, if ever, to reinvent myself. Or at a minimum, to discover something to do with my life that gives it meaning over these next 20+ years.
Yikes, that’s a long time!
So many folks I know go to work in a new environment once their children have left the nest. So, since this is where I find myself: where do I want to work? What kind of impact do I hope to have on coworkers, clients, the folks who God places in my life?
Am I doing what He wants me to do right now? I’m praying that I am able to minister to folks/families in my current job as a brain trainer (like a tutor, but for cognitive skills, not school subjects). I pray every day for my students, for our sessions, that God will use me in my current job and situation, and that I will be open to where He wants me to be eventually – here, or in another job.
What would I like that to be? What skills has He given me to use? How might it be different from ministry? Is there a difference between work and ministry for me? If so, what does that look like? What job? What ministry?
How do I not look too far ahead and simply trust Him for the outcome?